CONCEIVED THOUGHTS....

I know you will never fathom why’s the sudden urge that I am writing this..

But believe me, thinking about you, I just can’t resist the urge to pen down the beauty that you brought to my life. From the moment I saw you, I have been living under your benediction..

My eyes get wearisome watching the savage demented people causing chaos in the society. And that’s when your eyes bail me out of the solitary confinement. The deep hazel charisma vanquishes the wicked and restores the faith in me. They instill in me the impulse to carry on..

I get bruised by the anguish of my comrades when we don’t reach a consensus. But a simple touch of your hand mends it all. When you roll those delicate fingers over my bruises, I get an assuredness that harmony will reign after the evil..

I swelter in the Sun and pant often for the thirst of life. My face resembles someone who has toiled hard for years. Just when I am about to drop down, your momentary glance brings the blessing showers from thousand splendid SUNS. I see GOD in you.

I fear defeat and dread to think that every good thing comes to an end. I long for divinity, but the human mortality in me is bestowed every now and then. Whenever I fear, your benevolent heart tenderly embraces me and recites to me the beauty of LIFE. your words are music to my ears:

“FEAR no EVIL and the WORLD will BOW down at your ANVIL !!!”

How does a mortal like me pay homage to my own GOD ??

Blessed I am to have you in my Life.

There’s no one other……..

YOU N’ Only You!!!

MY DEAR MOTHER

When u find someone, for whom u care…

And hurting them is the last thing u’d dare…

When that call from your friend feels trivial…

And that night fairy becomes suddenly surreal…

When walking in sun, U find solace in ‘tat shadow’…

And that busy street starts to feel like a meadow…

When the clock seems to tic right in your ears…

And you get the strength to block out all your fears…

When walking those evening walks, doesn’t feel the same…

And nothing rings your ears, but ‘tat name’…

When that renowned cuisine starts losing its taste…

And the roadside Panipuri feels the best…

When ‘tat voice’ starts rustling like a wind chime…

N u empathize, “Dude, u’r doin jus fine !!”

When you do nothing, but stroll about in a mall…

And start resolving upon the wedding hall…

When people point out the gait, you have feigned…

TIME TO ADMIT, YOUR PRIORITIES HAVE CHANGED…!!!

In the drama of life you ENTER being a loner and you LEAVE being one..!!!!!

But in between this stage entry and exit, we humans are supposed to be extreme social animals. We constantly need someone to cheer up our gloomy faces, share our joys and sorrows.. Just be there for each other..

In my 22 years of stage, never had I felt being so alone.

Reminiscence from college days is all what I am left with now..

So what exactly blew away my happy brood, causing me to babble about being so lonely…. ???

Yo AKON !!… you sure must have conspired with GOD when u wrote…….

“Lonely..i m so lonely

I have nobody

To call my owwwnnn….

U put me in dire straits just to show GOD

“an exemplified version of your song” n made a fortune outta my shitty luck…

DAmm you mann..!!!!

So as my misfortune turned out. I got posted in THANE..

( Yucks…!! At least being in Mumbai suffices)…So

HERE I AM

THIS IS ME

THANE’S THE LAST PLACE ON EARTH I WANT TO BE..!!!!

HERE I AM

JUST ME N ME

TONIGHT MY NIGHTMARE HAS COME TRUE……!!!

I enjoyed the first week in the cozy company accommodation provided.. Everything was hunky-dory until I got booted out of the place.. “ Young fellow !! If I we are not mistaken.. This is not your abode.. Go find your own place..”

N out I went.. Searching for a home through a consortium of blood sucking BROKERS…

I directly went into…..

DEVIL’S OWN DOMICILE……!!!!!!!!!

Last time I wrote. I was dodging bullets from my beloved roomies playing CS… This time the ENIGMA returns. MAGNANIMOUS than ever..!!!

Lot has happened over the past few months…

Joined the company and toured all over the Eastern India in the guise of training. Starting from THE SECOND HOME Pune, going up to STEEL CITY Jamshedpur, moving on to NAWAB CITY Lucknow before finally making a touchdown in MAOIST CITY Bhubaneswar.

Jamshedpur was all about ease. Roaming about aimlessly in SAKCHI and BISTUPUR occupied most of the evenings. Then there would be swimming in TATA CLUB HOUSE followed by gud ol’ MALLYA BABA’s toast in DEEP PURPLE or LITTLE ITALY…

Lucknow was like a Pandora’s Box having a plethora of choices. The SAGAR INTERNATIONAL boasting of top class cuisine from LITTLE PRINCESS, NAIVEDYAM etc suited the appetites to the fullest. They say ”TEHZEEB, NAFASAT AUR NAZAKAT KE SHEHER LUCKNOW ME AAPKA SWAGAT HAI...” What an apt line to describe such a Courteous city..

Bhubaneswar had no such splendor to boast about. The GARIB STATE ka GARIB CAPITAL though has lots on offer for tourists. Went to JAGANNATH Temple in Puri, KONARK Temple, CHILKA Lake, NANDAN KANAN National Park, KHANDAGIRI, UDAYGIRI. The staff at GINGER was very supportive in the tough times when we went through the tribulations to get final posting. Watching EPL matches at the SCOTTISH BAR with Harshad though, will commemorated forever..

Like all the good things in life, this JAMBOREE had to end too..

AND THIS IS WHERE THE ENIGMA BEGINS……………!!!

Guys...Don't get baffled by the title....It's just a notion i happen to use while watching CS.....For those introvert morons who don't know what CS means ( Counter-Strike)....Nways dont mind if u didn't know...It sucks....literally,mentally,spirutually....
Why the hell i m so bothered abt discussing it then.....????
It so happens tat my two BABBAR SHER's ( my roomies ) are die hard fanatics of it.....so much so tat...Food ain't on the priority list anymore....Well, insan ko kam se kam jinda rehne ki liye to khana chahiye na....Guys, wake up......docters in pune won't spare any mercy on u less u visit them on grounds of malnutrition...
But don't worry..jab tak main hu..barabarse tumhe khana khane le he jaounga....u r my buddies yaar...
On less sentimental note.....I m on ma way 2 b'come a JEHADI.....Khatam kar dunga CS hostel se....
FLASHBACK:
In first year, I had a chance to switch my branch frm Electrical 2 either IT or MECH.....n i still remember tat fatefull day....when I joined the Elite Bretheren of Assholes.....I gracefully accepted MECH....Yaaro....MECH rox....But nw i feel like Sholey ka Thakur....Mere Hath kate to nahi, par bandh gaye hai.....Imagine if i wud hav taken IT....CS khallas....Aisa Virus banaya hota ki cs.exe file dikhte barabar hi system crash ho jati...Graphic card bhasak jaate....Gosh.. I miss being an IT guy for this sole reason...
REWIND 2 PRESENT:
Ab to haal aise hai ki "Fire in the hole" , "GO GO GO" , "Need backup" sune bina chain ki neend hi nahi aati...So my DEAR BABBAR SHERo....Agar mere neend ki jara si bhi parvah hai to.........


KILL those dammit TERRORISTS.....
( Dedicated only n only to ALCO n T-BAG )
u guys rock.....n kill 2..........